Nebraska Sunrise-around 5 am |
We are in Nebraska. Did I mention what amazing sunsets, and sunrises I’ve been seeing. I’m usually asleep or not paying attention for them at home, but on this trip I am awake early, and surrounded by the sun, and fields, and openness. You see a lot more when you’re alone, and have nothing else to do, but look around. This morning I woke up early (2am- remember) and drove until the sun was just rising. I was blown away. Maybe there is a metaphor here. I don’t know.
I am back on the road, and I am starting to feel like all this driving, and research and experience is in vain. I’m not sure what I am doing all this for. I have 20 more hours to Chicago. I need to drop off Cooper and meet my friend Janet- who decided to meet me when she heard I was doing this. All needs to happen- by early Thursday- at least that is what I’d want. It’s about 10:30. The residual of creep/liar is really getting to me. I have a tendency to let disappointment take over. I don’t compartmentalize very well.
I am driving, and a little bothered. I feel a scab on the back of my neck. I think it’s a scab, but I don’t remember getting cut. I feel it again, and it loosens. I pull it out of my hair, and its a small ugly ugly bug. I am so grossed out. I pinch it tight, and it’s legs move- it looks a little like a spider, but flatter. I throw it out the window, and regret not taking a picture. I google “tick”. Yes- I google it while driving- it’s open hwy, and nobody is around. Sure enough pictures of the same bug show up. I am so disgusted. I am definitely NOT in California anymore. I want to go home. I’m tired, I feel vulnerable, and now I have bugs.I start feigning Lymes disease. I’m sure I have it. I”m not cut out for this. I am not a camper. I just want to get back to civilization. I really am thinking about turning around and going home- but then what about Janet?
In Script Writing- according to the book Save The Cat one of the “beats” is called “all is lost”. This is when the character gets to a point where everything they had hoped for doesn’t seem possible. Things are adding up. It usually comes right before the character digs down deep and figures it all out. I was having an “All is lost” moment. It’s funny how I came on this journey to see what a long road trip like this would be like for the characters I am writing. I’ve got a lot to work with so far.
I decide after the Tick- to soldier on. I am pumped to get to Chicago. I rearrange my thoughts and get excited about the next stop- but somehow I don’t stop. I drive over 20 hours, and pull into Chicago late- but wait, what about Cooper?
Ticks, mosquitoes and humidity...oh my! California here I come!!!
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